Introspective Bibliophile.

The only thing that fear does is make me believe that I may not succeed. I will though. I hope...

Thu, 20 Jun 2013 02:32:00 -0400

The only thing that fear does is make me believe that I may not succeed. I will though. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

I had to go and fall for you didn’t I? Right before moving...

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 04:28:00 -0400

I had to go and fall for you didn’t I? Right before moving 1,400 miles away for a minimum of two years. Then I don’t even know if I’ll return after that time. We both knew that a relationship was implausible to the both of us in this situation, but I still fell in love with you. I kept it to myself until you first said the words. Now I have to go and cut ties entirely, or it will only make things worse. I should warn you, this is going to hurt. I’m sorry.

(I don’t know if that last part was to you, or to me).

I left home a week ago.

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 23:43:13 -0400

It feels like it’s been months, but at the same time I don’t even realize that I am over a thousand miles away. I get off the phone with friends and family, and have the urge to say, I will see you later, or tomorrow, or around. I wont though. It sucks pretty bad. It’s going to take a long time to make connections like the ones I had back home. I know some will never be as strong. People are different from I here. I feel as if I have to try really hard, and it’s exhausting. I will do well though, and I will be okay. I’m out to a bar now. Adieu.

I miss my motorcycle and want another!! :(

Tue, 11 Jun 2013 12:14:21 -0400

I miss my motorcycle and want another!! :(

An update, after two weeks of no posts.

Mon, 10 Jun 2013 02:25:45 -0400

My motorcycle has been sold. I left home, all of my family, and friends. There was a girl I fell for. She told me she loved me, and for the first time in over a year I wasn’t turned away from her. I said it back, even though we both knew it meant as little as time would allow. I am 1,400 miles away from all of that now. I’ve been wanting a fresh start for a while now, and this is it. Saying goodbye to people was hard. My family of course. My brother most of all. My roommate, and friends.

For the next two years I will be a high school teacher, and I will be getting my masters degree at Loyola Marymount in Los Angeles. I am so excited for the upcoming changes. I am going to be insanely busy, but I will be getting an education, and be making money. Good money. Who knows, maybe I will find a nice relationship here.

Oh, also, I want to buy another motorcycle soon. We shall see. A bobber this time perhaps?

The photos I am using to sell my bike. You can tell I only...

Mon, 27 May 2013 21:18:00 -0400

The photos I am using to sell my bike. You can tell I only cleaned one half of the bike for them by the forks haha. I even show the worst rust spot, which will easily come off with a bit more work. Sun spots are expected on a 40 year old paint job. She’s a beaut.

I love your blog. Nearly everything you personally have gone through I relate to. Going through the ups and downs as well as transitions. My favorite question to inquire to anyone is... how do you feel about your life a year ago?

Mon, 27 May 2013 05:00:00 -0400

Wow.., now that is a loaded question, due to what I went through about a year ago. So I will take it a bit further. I’ll go with a year and a month or two ago.

At this point I was at the very end of a three year long relationship. It was stable, and it was beautiful. As of late, I (and my life) have been anything but stable. I was happy then. I really was. My girlfriend at the time was (and despite the fact that we have not communicated as of late I would still like to say that I am sure she is still) a beautiful, wonderful, and a kind person. I will never speak negatively of her. We were on different wavelengths however. I distanced myself from her unintentionally, and intentionally. The relationship ended, and it was nothing but ups and downs from there. For a while now I have been doing really well. I have experienced a lot more than I would have imagined. I travelled, bought a motorcycle, made a lot of new friends, had new relationships.

Despite how great I have been lately, I lack the personal connection I once had in that relationship. I was truly in love. Her family was my family as well, and she was a part of my family. However since then, many of my friendships are much better than those that I had before, and many of the ones I had before have become even better friends.

It has made me oddly cynical when it comes to a romantic relationship, but in a good way I believe. Essentially I had an ideal relationship, and a stable life, but due to the impending changes in my life, and the different aspects of my life that did not mesh well, it ended. The way I look at things; if I do not find something that makes me equally as happy, or happier, than I was then, I will not be satisfied.

All in all, my life a year ago was wonderful. Beyond wonderful, and not that great at some points. However, I choose to focus on the good, and learn from the bad.

Now I am leaving the city where I was born and raised. I am starting from scratch entirely. I am only taking whatever I can fit into my car. I don’t know anyone where I am moving. I am starting a new job, and am getting a degree in a curriculum that I have not previously studied. I am looking forward to what some would call a new life. It will simply be a different experience. I will always appreciate what I have here, and what I have had here. I’ll keep moving forward. I hope to return and get a PhD here in Austin. Spoiler alert- It seems as if this may very well pan out. The end. I give long answers. Be well anon.

This is my baby, Scarlett. We have come a long way. The first...

Sun, 26 May 2013 20:15:13 -0400

The first day, about a year ago.

Last week.

This is my baby, Scarlett. We have come a long way. The first day, and a picture from last week. Today I have decided to sell her. I am sad, but moving her across country along with all of my other possessions would be too pricey. I am fitting all of my clothing and books in my car. No furniture, no bed, no electronics other than my phone and laptop, nothing. I am starting from scratch in California. I got this CB350F running properly, and made quite a few cosmetic changes. Sadly, I have to sell her before finishing my new seat, and making a custom fender. I did quite well for my first motorcycle, having no experience. I’m aiming to turn a cruiser into a bobber for my next project. Scarlett, it’s been fun. I will always remember you.

I may have a Ph.D. program set up after my time in TFA!!!

Fri, 24 May 2013 10:50:42 -0400

COME AT ME LIFE.

"I’m not sure what I’ll do, but — well, I want to go places and see people. I want my mind to grow. I..."

Wed, 22 May 2013 12:17:51 -0400

“I’m not sure what I’ll do, but — well, I want to go places and see people. I want my mind to grow. I want to live where things happen on a big scale.”

- F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Ice Palace and Other Stories (via absolute-beginner)

I went tubing and camping this weekend. This is me, on the back...

Mon, 20 May 2013 13:46:37 -0400

I went tubing and camping this weekend. This is me, on the back of Brock’s truck, in Marcy’s hat. Photo taken by Kristin. It was great being surrounded by wonderful people.

I went camping at Krause Springs last night. Neil caught a photo...

Tue, 14 May 2013 17:45:26 -0400

I went camping at Krause Springs last night. Neil caught a photo of me relaxing on the tree.

claspgarage: If you wait, all that happens is that you get...

Mon, 13 May 2013 14:54:24 -0400

claspgarage:

If you wait, all that happens is that you get older.

Larry McMurty

Beautiful.

365musicdiary: Day 40: Month of Sundays by Passenger

Mon, 13 May 2013 14:26:07 -0400

365musicdiary:

Day 40: Month of Sundays by Passenger

Perfect weather for a nice deep clean, and a long ride today.

Sat, 11 May 2013 19:05:06 -0400

Perfect weather for a nice deep clean, and a long ride today.

I want to be here.

Thu, 09 May 2013 18:05:48 -0400

I want to be here.

When I get wherever it is that I am going,

Tue, 07 May 2013 13:23:15 -0400

I am going to pick up a stone. I am going to throw this stone as far as I can, and if anyone asks what I am doing; I will tell them that I am in the process of moving mountains, but I am taking things in stride.

I was called the Mexican Don Draper this weekend, and then I was...

Tue, 07 May 2013 00:13:53 -0400

I was called the Mexican Don Draper this weekend, and then I was told I looked like a hispanic Clark Kent. I’ll take it. Oh, this is me on a roof.

Oh yeah, update on life. I have been going rock climbing quite a...

Mon, 06 May 2013 23:22:06 -0400

Oh yeah, update on life. I have been going rock climbing quite a bit lately. That’s me up there!

Another portrait of me by my friend Maria Dolores Minor.

Fri, 03 May 2013 11:55:00 -0400

Another portrait of me by my friend Maria Dolores Minor.